Devasteted

the result turn to, 

Mucoepidermoid Carcinoma

and its cancer.. 

bismillah, 

Ya Allah, 

ku pinta Kau tabahkan lah hati ini..

kuatkan lah diri ini.. 

agar dapat mengharungi dan memberi sokongan tanpa jemu untuk dia.. 

its NO for the answer

sy sedar & mengaku kesalahan sy
sy sedar & mengaku keterlekaan sy
sy sedar & mengaku kelancangan sy


kerana sy tidak menjaga lisan dr mengata, 
kerana lisan teman2 sy berkecil hati & membenci
kerana lisan ada yg menangis & terguris hati


TAPI


berani kah kamu mengaku kesalah kamu?
beranikah kamu mengaku keterlekaan kamu?
beranikah kamu mengaku kelancangan kamu?


kamu jugak manusia biasa 
kamu jugak tak terkecuali dr mengata


sy xpernah meminta kamu memaafkan sy
sy xpernah meminta kamu menerima sy


KERANA


sy tahu 
its NO for the answer


KENAPA


kerana sy jugak begitu.. 

Words.. Once they're said, they can only be forgiven, not forgotten

i NeeD a DoCtoR

I Need A Doctor lyrics
Featuring: Dr. Dre, Skylar Grey

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
I told the world, one day I would pay it back.
Say it on tape and lay it, record it, so that one day I could play it back.
But I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that.
Doubt startin' to creep in, everyday it's just so grey and black.
Hope, I just need a ray of that
'Cause no one sees my vision
When I play it for 'em, they just say it's whack.
But they don't know what dope is.
And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this.
All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest.
You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you.
But for the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do.
But it just dawned on me; you lost a son. Demon's fightin' you, it's dark.
Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you.
I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue.
'Cause me and you, were like a crew. I was like your sidekick.
You gon' either wanna fight when I get off this f-cking mic,
Or you gon' hug me. But I'm out of options, there's nothing else I can do cause...

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle.
You come to me with ideas.
You say they're just pieces, so I'm puzzled.
'Cause the sh-t I hear is crazy,
But you're either getting lazy, or you don't believe in you no more.
Seems like your own opinions, not one you can form.
Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself,
Second guessing, and it's almost like your begging for my help.
Like, I'm YOUR leader.
You're supposed to f-cking be MY mentor.
I can endure no more!
I demand you remember who you are!
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/e/eminem-lyrics/i-need-a-doctor-lyrics.html]
It was YOU, who believed in me,
When everyone was telling you, don't sign me.
Everyone at the f-cking label, lets tell the truth.
You risked your career for me, I know it as well as you.
Nobody wanted to f-ck with the white boy...
Dre, I'm crying in this booth.
You saved my life, now maybe it's my time to save yours.
But I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more.
But I ain't giving up faith, and you ain't giving up on me.
Get up Dre! I'm dying, I need you, come back for f-ck's sake cause

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
But I still remember the sh-t like it was just yesterday though
You walked in, yellow jump suit
Whole room, cracked jokes
Once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
Went through friends, some of them I put on
But they just left, they said they was riding to the death
But where the f-ck are they now
Now that I need them, I don't see none of them
All I see is Slim
F-ck all you fairweather friends
All I need is him
F-cking backstabbers
When the chips were down, you just laughed at us
Now you bout to feel the f-cking wrath of aftermath, faggots
You gon' see us in our lab jackets and ask where the f-ck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
Little cracker jack beat making wack math,
Backwards producers, I'm back bastards
One more CD and then I'm packing up my bags and as I leave
And I guarantee they'll scream, Dre don't leave us like that man cause...

[Chorus]
Im about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

Notes: Friends.. Bring out the best for each others..

Help!! Tulun!!

 

Serius aku sgt xsenta ari ni.. 

TOLONG la jgn bg aku hangin.. 

Silap2 aku lak yg telan Xanax tu.. 

tit tit tit... GRENADE nk mletop..

1st time dgr lagu ni aku tersentuh sgt.. huh sian dia.. napa awek buat cemtu kat balak yg sanggup angkut pinano keliling pekan.. kalau aku musti aku teharu.. balak sanggup buat cemtu walaupn org skeliling kata aku jahat.. tetap balak aku kata aku baik, syg aku & trima aku seadanya.. well tu tuk 1s verse..

Verse lain pulak.. 2,3 hari ni terkena batang idung aku daa.. fuhhh.. lagu ni sgt seswai .. ohh bukan.. bkn cik bby buat hal.. mintak simpang lah..
Perihal org di sekaliling.. ya mulut ku jahat.. ya aku suka menegur.. tp aku menegur di hadapn muka kamu bkn? bkn di belakang seperti kwn2 baik kamu yg konon akan bela kamu bila aku serang kamu.. Hell ooo.. ni zaman apa syg.. xmain la serang2.. adoi ai.. blajar tinggi2.. bodoh melantun lantun.. (jgn ingat aku xtau yer siapa kamu2, wahai sang penambah rasa)

Dan buat kamu adikku syg,

Yg pasti, apa juga kutukan kamu.. apa juga cacian kamu pada aku.. aku trima dan aku tidak sesekali akn membalas.. TIDAK.. Dan aku sudah cukup dewasa tuk menilai yg kamu masih ada KEBAIKAN.. dan aku akan pastikan KEBAIKAN kamu itu cukup untuk melindungi segala gala yg negetif dr dlm diri kamu.. aku tidak akan membenci.. Dan walau sebesar kuman pn kamu xmenganggap aku sbgai kakak.. kamu tetap adik padaku.. 

Grenade - Bruno Mars 

Easy come, Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take, take, take it all
But ya never give

Should've known
You was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open,
Why were they open? (Oh)

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya(yeah, yeah, yeah )
You know I'd do anything for ya(yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh,
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You'll smile in my face then
Rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...

But darlin' I'll still catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same.

No, you won't do the same,

You wouldn't do the same,
Ooh, you'll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

 

"Maaf"Sungguh Sukar Di Lafazkan Bukan?

wish this comes from him.. but HARAPAN darl.. 

HARAPAN.. 

Hanyut - Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Repeat Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja